I got up early this morning to grab the phone line before the others awake – there’s eight here today and I guess someone will come hassling before long. I have returned to using wordpress (the software that I was using last year briefly) for this site, and have updated it to the latest (stable) version 1.0.2. I will be working on the layout and style over the coming days and weeks, but for now we will have to be happy with what we’ve got. What is it about standards compliant code that makes me happy? Why should I think that it is desirable for my code to be semantically identical to the code of everyone else?!
I have begun dressing the ash, but am quite disheartened today; I don’t want to be doing it. I feel like my work is not ‘good enough’, too rough, or ugly… Why this society, myself included, is so hung up on the smooth, square, fair, straight, even and ‘perfect’ I do not know! I like things to be neat, orderly, clean, structured, yes — but why does that mean I should feel this incompetent when I struggle to make things so? Aagh…. As usual when I am in this state I have come to find solace in the internet (please note irony!), and at least the quiet of the library is nice…. I have been reading about the Inaccessibility of Visually-Oriented Anti-Robot Tests. Fascinating.
I love the physicality of woodworking, the way that it engages my whole body and soul — but not, alas, my mind. What I mean is that I don’t turn to wood to be challenged in a cerebral way; rather, I find with wood a calming and a satisfaction that is on a wholely other level, more in my hands than my head. The problem solving inherent in woodworking is entertaining, but it’s nowhere near the level I find in programming. Thus is the eternal division in my life… sigh…